.:Am I Still Pure?:.
[Japan x Shota!Male!Reader]
I really like to draw, it's one of my favourite things in the whole world to draw whatever I love, when my brother and raiser Japan had gotten a sketchbook for me, I drew everyday. But recently I've noticed that I've been drawing what I love most of all that makes me happy... I've been drawing him.
"(F/n)-kun what are you doing?" Japan turns his head from the tv to look at me.
"I'm drawing you! So don't move!" I command holding the pencil like a professional measures something. My tiny hand rubbing out a line and rolling up my tiny kimono.
"Oh rearry? Thank you, I'm happy" Japan laughs, I gulp feeling a thump in my heart but grin back as he gently ruffles my (h/c) locks.
I went through so many sketch books then that I stored in my closet, but I never showed them to him...
When my visual age turned to 9 years old, Japan and I would spend hours talking. I remember he once told me "Chirdren are so pure and innocent, just rike pure white... You (f/n)-kun are pure white... And I'm brack darkness". I didn't understand fully what he meant so I immediately replied "Then mix with me! That way you'll be grey" he laughed and ruffled my hair "there's no way I courd do that (F/n)-kun because then you'd be grey too." My mind asked "am I still pure white? If you know what I do then you would know I'm not..." but no words came out my mouth...
"H-ha-aahh~ J-Japa- hng!" My wet hands stroked my hard 9 year old member, stroking the tip and massaging the base. I but my lip to hold back my moans to not make too much noise, my toes curled gripping the white sheets as I played with myself. My quivering lips letting out ragged hot breaths and my (e/c) eyes rimming with pleasurable tears.
Lately Japan had always been on my mind, his work load had increased so he was barely home anymore. I found whenever he wasn't here and I thought about him I ended up doing this...
'I want to see him so badly...'
"Hng! H-haa~" my form shakes with my strokes.
'His smiling face... His crying face... His face as he laughs... His face as he sleeps... And his face when he'd do these pleasurable things..."
"Ha! A-ahn nh~" I quicken my strokes feeling the burning sensation from my vital regions spread to my stomach.
'I want to know more about Japan... To touch him... To embrace him... To make him feel good... And I want to make us feel good together...'
"Ahn~ hnn-Ah-haaa~ J-Japaah~" my raspy voice whispers and the pleasure spreading around my body making me deaf to the sound of the front door opening. 'I-I'm gonna cum...' My bedroom door slowly opens...
"Huh!" My eyes widen and I throw myself crouched over he end of the bed over my throbbing member as Japan opens the door curiously.
"D-don't look!" The knot in my stomach releases and my load shoots to the floor. Japan stands in the doorway wide eyed, I shake gripping the bed sheets to cover myself, he starts stuttering madly moving his arms around.
"I-I-I'm sorry (f-f/n)-kun! I-I shourd have knocked, I-I just thought y-you were asreep a-a-a-and I'rr go get some tissues!" Japan runs out of the room. I tuck my member back into my yukuta and surround myself with the blanket like Japan when he was in isolation, my eye flow with tears at the pure shame of being caught by him doing such a disgraceful thing, my body shakes with horror and all I wanted to do was crawl in a hole and die.
Japan turns with tissues and cleans up the mess on the floor too nervous to say anything without stuttering and I burry myself with the blanket, stuffing my face in the plush surface. Once he'd finished; he sat at my side...
"(F-f/n)-kun prease stop crying"
"Don't worry about this, it's not a shamefur thing. In fact its proof that your a boy turning into a man; its naturar. I -in fact I did it when I was younger too s-so it's proof that your growing... So c-congratulation I suppose" Japan says nervously poking hit fingers together in his lap as I pout under the blanket. 'Looks like he didn't hear me call his name... But I wanna crawl in a hole and die!' I think to myself, he looks down with his concerned deep brown orbs.
"I honestry don't understand why you are so shamed, but prease (f/n)-kun say something to me..." he puts a caring hand on my shoulder.
"...Because no matter what, you'rr arways be precious to me" he pulls my blanket covered form into a hug.
"You can arways count to me, don't hesitate to terr me anything. We're brothers after all" he smiles, I reach out an arm and grip his yukuta. Listening to his soothing heart beat; I close my eyes and hold onto him in the loving embrace.
'I want to tell him...'
"I wirr arways risten to whatever you have to say. You have nothing to be ashamed of, so tark to me with no restraint."
'I want to tell him so badly...'
His grip loosens on me and he smiles to me "Promise me (f/n)-kun?" He releases me and extends his pinky finger.
'I want to confess how I feel towards him...'
I use my extended had and link my pinky with his, my heart thumps when I meet his finger and wrap mine around it. "I promise Japan..."
'I want to tell him...'
Japan suddenly stands, releasing my pinky making my eyes widen, "Werr I should be getting to bed" he smiles.
"It was a very rong day at work so we should be going to sreep" he says slowly moving to the door.
'Don't go, don't leave me...'
He stops at the door and looks back to me "Sweet dreams (f/n)-kun" he smiles.
'No... I need to tell you...'
"I love you Japan" he freezes in the doorway and I look back with a nervous expression, he smiles in response.
"I rove you too (f/n)-kun, you are my cute rittre brother" my expression falls and I look down sadly into the blanket at being called 'just' cute little brother. Japan sees my expression change and comes back in front of me.
"E-eh! What's wrong (f/n)-kun?" Japan nervously stutters raising his hands above my shoulders, I look down to the ground with an almost angry expression.
"Japan, would you hug me for a bit?"
"O-of course, just prease don't make that kind of face" he stretches his arms around me for the hug. I throw off the blanket, grab his wrists and pull him onto the bed, back first as I crawl to lay on his form. I lower my face to the side of his head, I lick the perimeter of his ear making him shake and earning protesting stutters as I lick and suck on his ear.
"(F-f/n)-k-un!? W-wh-what are you doing? H-hey wait! –Hya!" I make him mew as I lick from his ear to his jaw bone.
"H-hnn~!" He bites down a moan when I slip the yukuta down his shoulder and suck at the exposed collar bone, he puts his shaking hands on my chest but makes no effort to push me off.
'S-stop it (f/n)-kun; t-this is what one does with their lover, n-not their sibling–"
"Japan!" He freezes and looks up at my desperate face.
"I... I love you Japan, but not like a brother... I've always loved you..."
"(F/n)-kun w-wait–" my lips collide onto Japan's making him moan words into my mouth, I lick his lips to ask for entrance but receiving no response; I slide a hand down his exposed chest and give his nipple a pinch. He gasps and I take advantage of that but plunging my tongue into his warm cavern bringing his reluctant tongue out and sucking on it making him mew in pleasure.
'Its the first time I've seen Japan make this expression, its extremely arousing... His soft lips feel so good'
My hips automatically start grinding on his knee and rub my knee against his hard crotch earning stifled moans from Japan biting his lip as I lick and suck at his collarbone.
'I can't stop... I want to do more, Japan is hard too... And he doesn't fight back... I bet he's also feels good...'
I slide my tongue down his chest and latch my hungry lips on his erect nipples, I suck, bite, lick, kiss and play with his nipples and feel him move his shaking hands from my chest to my head. When I roughly bite him making a love mark, he squeaks and tightens his grip in my (h/c) hair.
I slip a hand down and slowly untie his yukuta, he bits his lips but doesn't protest, I slip a hand down his boxers and slowly stroke his hard erection, I hear pleasurable moans hidden behind denying lips as I grip and massage his throbbing & dripping member.
"Hnn~! Ah! Nnn~" he moans fuelling me to continue. His moans quicken telling me he was close, I feel his member stiffen in my fingers but I wanted him to cum when I was in him, so I squeezed near the tip of the throbbing cock and he mews in protest.
Kissing him passionately again; I slide my hand to free my hard cock from my pants already dripping with pre-cum, I stroke it to make it lubed.
'I can't... Hold back anymore...'
I pant in hot breaths and line up my member with his entrance, without even waiting or giving a warning... I'd been wanting this for too long anyway... I thrusted in making a loud moan escape Japan's lips as he tightly grips the bed sheets; his ebony hair spraying all over his face.
"Ahh haah A-all in..." I breath out, Japan says nothing but whimpers with his legs shaking around me.
'Japan took me in so deeply... He's so hot and tight... It feels so amazing that I can't think straight...'
I take a second but then start thrusting into him making sweat slide down my forehead and Japan to not stifle his moans, he mews and shrieks loudly with every thrust I deliver over and over again. My hips buckle as I slam into him, my teeth grunt agains each other and I force my eyes open to look at how gorgeous Japan looked blushing beneath me. His eyes were squeezed shut with tears sliding down, his mouth agape moaning out my name and his muscles shook and shivered as I pleasured us.
'I fantasised about this moment for so long... All the words I never said, the feelings I couldn't express... Are about to spill into Japan...'
The growing warmth in the pit of my stomach burns as I thrust harder and quicker, I hit a spot in Japan making him scream loudly and panting my name, I bit my lip and thrust hardly at that spot, using one hand to slam his hips against me and the other to stop him from coming yet. The knot in my stomach tightens as I pound into him...
"Ah! Hah~! (F-f/n)-k-kun... Ngh! P-prease–Ah~!"
'I want to know everything about you Japan... All I can hear are your moans calling for me..."
I smile, feeling myself ready to release as well.
"Y-yes." I say releasing his member and finishing with another large thrust into him, he moans loudly with tears streaming down his cheeks. I moan his name loudly releasing my load into his warm cavern.
His cum sprays all over his shaking chest, reaching his cheek as he looks out teary eyes panting madly, I drop my head panting and hungrily lick up his sweet syrup from his shivering form. I then stretch up and kiss him passionately, he grants me entrance feeling no energy to protest, I lace our tongues, desperately sucking out his warm moist mouth. I could tell he needed to breath but I was so desperate to not end the kiss that I kept kissing, he puts his shaking hands in my shoulders but I ignore it and continue kissing. He moans words loudly into my mouth begging for air that I wasn't granting, when I finally part from him, he desperately sucks in air and lays against the pillow with his eyes shut.
I collapse next to him wrapping my arms around him and press my ear against his rapidly beating chest and close my (e/c) eyes.
'I love you... Now you know I love you... Please tell me...
... Am I still pure?'
"Arr right, I'm off to work now (f/n)-kun. You be good while I'm gone" Japan smiles to me in the doorway wearing his suit and tie, briefcase in hand as I stood in the hall way.
"I will, I promise Japan" I reply with a fake smile plastering my saddened face.
'Why do you act like nothing happened...?'
"Okay then, I'rr be home for dinner tonight also" he says fixing his red tie and slipping his black shoes on.
'Is it because you know how much I love you that you ignore my feelings...?'
"Hehe, I'll be looking forward to it then!" I smile scratching the back of my head.
'Why won't you love me like I love you...?'
He takes the door and opens it, stepping out into the morning air, he turns to smile at me saying "I'm off".
'Why didn't you pat my head today like you always do...?
I stare at the shutting door with an arm slowly being outstretched but stop short as it clicks shut
'Why...? Why...? I don't know why you don't... But...'
"... have... a good... day..." My expression falls at the shut door and my voice looses all happiness, I slam my back into the wall and cover my eyes with my arms.
I slide down the wall and cry into my yukuta covered arms, my tears staining the material in my sadness. As my tears fall; I bite my lip to temporarily to stifle my cries of sadness and I stare at the closed door longingly, then throw my wet eyes back into my arms, weeping out loud hoping he would hear and come running back to me... To hold me... To love me... Love me like I love him.
'...But I still love you...'